yeah. she’s done it again. again and again. and again. she’s never stop. she’s just repeating herself over and over again.

i tried so hard to understand. yes, i am understand, understand it too much. but it seems like she didn’t even realized that. she’s just done it again and again and again.

i don’t know which will hurt me more, loosing her or keep getting hurt again and again by her. she’s just done it again and i believe she’s don’t understand why and if i want to make the point of it she will blame me again and again.

i am the culprit of this insane devil circle. always start with me but always end with me. there is only her in her mind… her own… don’t even think about us or even about me. it just her world and i am just a dust in the darkest corner of her consideration.

but i don’t want to loose her. i don’t know why. maybe because i am addicted to being hurt again and again. but i just don’t want to. yet, she’s done it again and again.

want to scream. my heart hurts. my mind want to explode and yet still i can’t let her go. who is the victim of this condition? she’s always said that she is the main victim. yet, why i feel devastated the most?

she’s done it again and again. i don’t know if she really know about it at all. or maybe she just don’t care…

living in pain. hoping for the best but still she’s done it again and again.