drunk behind the wheel…

ever heard the song ‘out of my head’ by fastball?

“sometimes i feel like i am drunk behind the wheel, the wheel of possibility…however it may roll”

that’s exactly what i feel right now… there are many possibilities in front of me, but i am drunk and i can’t choose which possibility that will give me the most advantage. i hate to admit it, but that is the reality. i am drunk… and the worst thing that i am rejecting all the help other people offering me… and i just don’t realize that.

i just shutdown myself from any advice, i just simple fade away.

well, i hope this feeling just temporary because it made me feel empty…