Avianto's Journal

There is the time when you just need to left everything behind you and try to see those everything from a different point of view.

Relationship, friendship, love, care and honesty… I just need to see them from another perspective. So blurry to figure them out while you are inside them…

So… From one point of view I can call it over but it also a new beginning from a different angle.

Good bye… It’s so hard to accept what you have done to me but maybe if I could see it from a different point of view I will understand it…

I am feeling numb right now… betrayal, confusion, anger, madness, fear, hate and all negative feeling are lingering inside my heart…

Am I a fool for believing that everything will be just like yesterday? I need time to heal my wound… It hurt so deep it almost kill me…

Adrienne by the Calling

I’ve been thinking about you, my love.
And all the crazy things that you put me through
Now I’m coming around, Throwing it back to you
Were you thinking of me when you kissed him Could you taste me when you licked his skin All the while I showered you with trust and promises
What I’m needing now is some sweet revenge To get back all that I lost then I gave you all I had to give, but I could never reach you
Adrienne, I thought I knew you Once again, you used me, used me Adrienne, I should have left you Long before you used me, Used me up
Spent my money, drove my car I treated you like a shining star But in my sky all burnt out you are
And I’ll have the last laugh, when I see you walking with some other guy ‘Cause I know you’re gone end up all alone
So take these words, some good advice All you’ve done gonna come back twice You never cared how much it hurt, I really need to tell you
Adrienne, I thought I knew you Once again, you used me, used me Adrienne, I should have left you Long before you used me, Used me up
What I’m needing now’s some sweet revenge To get back all that I lost then I gave you all that I had to give, but I could never reach you
Adrienne, I thought I knew you Once again, you used me, used me Adrienne, I should have left you Long before you used me, Used me up

I am in Bandung right now. Ayu just finished her first final-thesis test and she’s look quite all right… I think she will manage it well through out the second test (on Tuesday) and I wish and pray so.

It’s been a while… I am hanging around the campus. It sure bring back a lot of memories… I’ll write about it later. Right now I had other things to do. Be back later.

Ayu will have her final thesis examination this Saturday (16) and next Tuesday (19). She is very busy and very high tense right now with the preparation and my attitude and lack of understanding weren’t help her a bit… =(

I wish I could do more than just leave her alone busy with her thesis, but I guess that is what she want since everytime I want to help her in anyway it always turn out to be just another catastrophic disaster or emotional rollercoaster. Even stand close to her send a chill down to her spine… Seems pretty tense. Maybe I am giving her a bad vibration =(.

Well, now I am wishing her the best of luck and success on her thesis. Always wish the best for you, dear Ayu. I know you can do it as best as you can. God bless you.

Speaking about luck. I also will need a great deal of luck and blessing from all of you. I am in the middle of prepration for something big, something major that it may change my life (and no.. I wasn’t talking about marriage.. yet). So until the right time (which I don’t even know when but I will tell you all anyway later) just wish the best for me too.

To sum it all… Ayu and I need your best wish and blessing. Ayu with her thesis and me with my big and major thing. Wish both of us, will you? Thank you.

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Hmm… the article also make me realize ‘is there any perfect relationship’?