now i know what make me still hold on… there is still something left after all…
desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer where i started
chasing after you
i’m falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i’ve held onto
i’m standing here until you make me move
i’m hanging by a moment here with you
forgetting all i’m lacking
completely incomplete
i’ll take your invitation
you take all of me
now.. i’m falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i’ve held onto
i’m standing here until you make me move
i’m hanging by a moment here with you
i’m living for the only thing i know
i’m running and not quite sure where to go
i don’t know what i’m diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you
there’s nothing else to lose
nothing left to find
there’s nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else…
Hangin’ by a moment – Lifehouse
yeah. she’s done it again. again and again. and again. she’s never stop. she’s just repeating herself over and over again.
i tried so hard to understand. yes, i am understand, understand it too much. but it seems like she didn’t even realized that. she’s just done it again and again and again.
i don’t know which will hurt me more, loosing her or keep getting hurt again and again by her. she’s just done it again and i believe she’s don’t understand why and if i want to make the point of it she will blame me again and again.
i am the culprit of this insane devil circle. always start with me but always end with me. there is only her in her mind… her own… don’t even think about us or even about me. it just her world and i am just a dust in the darkest corner of her consideration.
but i don’t want to loose her. i don’t know why. maybe because i am addicted to being hurt again and again. but i just don’t want to. yet, she’s done it again and again.
want to scream. my heart hurts. my mind want to explode and yet still i can’t let her go. who is the victim of this condition? she’s always said that she is the main victim. yet, why i feel devastated the most?
she’s done it again and again. i don’t know if she really know about it at all. or maybe she just don’t care…
living in pain. hoping for the best but still she’s done it again and again.
lately i’ve been quite addictive on listening to internet radio. two of my favorite radio station are kcrw and the british’s virgin radio. anyone got another recommendation?
today i had lunch with some of designfaculty‘s crew: me, the boss aka. gumilang, godote, thalia, marthin, gigih and djaka.
the news: here
the pictures: here
thank you guys.. and gal. see you again soon!
just download unreal tournament 2003‘s demo. damn! this is a great game! remind me a lot of my quake II dan quake 3 arena days. i must buy it as soon as the stores are open again after this christmas. i played the demo for 2 straight hours and glad that my shooting skills is not really degraded… i wonder why i am suck at counterstrikes but quite good at quake and unreal? they are fps action game, right? maybe i am just not used to ‘ordinary’ weaponry… =P
well. if you like fps action game, buy this game! or if i, as a veteran of quake’s war era, can not convince you, just download the demo and try it your self. and by the way, i am not payed to saying that, ok? i just know a good game when i play one.